Wednesday, December 29, 2010

the book was excellent

i want something exciting to happen. the news is always about the weather. blah blah. im sick of the weather. i wish i had a tv show that i was interested in right now. im not really interested in reading anything. i dont want to knit anything. its too snowy to go out anywhere. i dont really have anybody that interesting to talk to or see. and mom is gone so the house is really lonely. its less lonely than salt lake house though. when sean is gone that place beams eeriness. 

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Merry Hats Day

I started knitting this winter. Ive mostly been doing hats for the little ones at the hospital but i just started making big ones! so get excited for hats my friends! also im going to start doing some scarves soon so if you want one call me beep me if you wanna reach me. 

(my plan for december was to post something i made everyday.. but ive been slacking so this is a big few weeks post all in one)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Long Time Gone

Its been awhile since i last wrote so ill give an update post and then a few better posts to come shortly!

I finally finished fall semester at the U. I really have loved it. its a much better fit for me than BYUH. although i do really miss the girls from hawaii. I decided im going to go into nursing. its a bit of a change but i think it will be really excellent. so ill start my prereqs next semester and go from there.

I moved to a new apartment closer to school that is lovely, plus my best friend lives in the door next to me :) the downfall is im having a hard time getting all moved in and situated because of maintenance. but once its all finished it will be awesome and ill post some pictures when the time comes.

I got a new job working at a home with Autistic girls. im getting more used to it and its sinking in a lot more. but its definitely better than kneaders. Dayna and Berklee work there as well so its good to see my best girls more often. i miss them up in salt lake.

Ive been feeling in a rut for the past few months. im not sure what its from so thats a big factor in me moving and changing jobs. I also changed my hair style and i feel like that has helped me a lot. im not sure what is causing it because i feel content with most things in my life, i guess something is missing. im hoping the break in school and getting to spend more time with my family will help me figure it out.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Saturday, September 4, 2010


My best girl friend dayna had the most beautiful baby girl and i love her and both of them will all my heart!!!

Lila Faye
Born September 2, 1010
8 pounds 16 ounces
18.5 inches long

Dayna! you did it! i am so proud of you and i couldnt dream of a kinder more selfless friend than you. you are truly an angel and i love you. your baby is so pretty! i loved holding her and looking at her big baby eyes and chubby baby body. she is perfect. I cant wait for you to come home to be my SL buddy lover.  

Monday, August 23, 2010

Friday, August 13, 2010

im writing letters and making envelopes for all you lovelies right now
<# <#

Sunday, August 8, 2010


My blog has become extremely impersonal lately.. im so sorry. i guess i get nervous at the snakes lurking around on the web. but i have been lacking on my personal journal as well and my mind is forgetful and i dont remember this summer that well. so fall ill try to be better. 

Nobody seems interesting to me lately. I try hanging around new people but they always come off too strong. i dont know if its me or them now. anyway... i have spent a lot of time alone this month. i can count the lonely days and the sad ones but i realized lonely isnt always sad. plus i got two new pet rats to help my lonely days
Olivia-she is hairless and beautiful. when i bought her there was a tiny cyst on her eye that they said would go away. but after a week or so it grew huge.. so the other night i popped the rat zit! it was true horror, green goo and blood running down her face. shes doing a lot better now and seems so to have such a happier spirit. 
Leo is a tiny baby girl rat with black and white hair. shes so sweet and friendly. the first day she came home she had a serious sneezing problem so i looked it up and turns out baby rats sneeze when they are excited. 

They are almost impossible to take pictures of- but here they are

Friday, July 30, 2010

im going out of town for a few days
see you later pretty people

Monday, July 26, 2010

one year ago today

was my first day in hawaii

The word love is not enough. i could say i love many but i mean completely different things each time i say it. the word loves means too little for what it is. it means everything and that is still not enough. it doesnt communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. the word is not enough for what it is. 
love. love. 

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

almost august

im finally back in utah
i went horseback riding all weekend the energy from horses is so mysterious and healing 
im going to the dentist next week
i found a house in salt lake, ill move in august sometime
dayna is having her baby in a month
im learning to get in touch with my emotions better or at all
i met paul hes into shaman healing and energy
he convinced me to buy a book on astrology--im on chapter 3
i have been self motivating myself to be more productive and level headed. on thursday i get to gift myself! and i think ill buy something similar to one of these

Monday, July 19, 2010


my phone isnt working
its broken
i havent turned it on for a day or two but the last time i did it was freaking out and every letter was either a K or L.....
so sorry for ditching the tea party
and sorry for being a hermit all weekend
also im out of town

Saturday, July 10, 2010

so long this weekend

Im leaving for a second. 

See you soon utah

Friday, July 9, 2010


right now my chest is empty but so heavy

i feel so sad but so glad i am feeling emotion

i want it stay but i always feel numb 

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


so far i am a level 4 undead warlock. and im using the free ten day trial so im becoming hopeless since i cant send money over to this character from the others. anyway. im not going to spend my whole summer doing this. only a few hours a week. and i think i might need to share my account plus computer with sean so the time keeps disappearing. 

Sunday, June 13, 2010

sunday dinner

Today sean and i cooked a dinner for his family plus grandma and grandpa ivins. we had a late start on the cooking so it all went a little weird but over all it was a good meal.
-eggplant parmesan
-squash soup
-chocolate pie

After we went on a drive up to the rodeo grounds to try and take a walk in the clouds but they were too high up so we sat in the car and just looked around. the rain was so pretty it was like we weren't in utah but somewhere else. somewhere much better. it was truly a one of the best days.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

In my room

Ive decided i really love elephants

Sunday, June 6, 2010

few up to dates

-I have a job 
-I have been looking at Salt lake houses
-My card expired about a week ago and i still havent gone to get a new one so im living off no money currently
-I have only slept at home twice this week
-I wonder how bean bags can feel so comfortable while sleeping in them but when you wake up you feel so horrible
-I have been hanging with the same one person
-Im missing my girl friends
-My favorite tea is passion

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

we had a family party

at the cemetery...and sent letters and balloons to paul!

next work is week

Since i have been home my job has been plasma.. but only five more days. five more days until the wonderful days of young life is over and i enter working life. i can say that i have not had a real job for a few years. i have stuck with house work for mother, driving around sister, writing a few articles in my bed, and giving plasma. 

The first time i gave plasma i fainted while doing so. the second time i was deferred for low red blood cells. the third time went okay. and the fourth i was placed next to a darker man who bluntly asked me if i was interested in black men. so i said 'no i am actually not' not completely true but i wasnt in the mood to make a new friend. however he kept talking to me asking me what religion i believed in. i told him none. and he said that was 'sick and wrong'... intelligent words. he never asked me what i believed but he did tell me how evolution cant be proven and nobody has ever witnessed evolution. also he didnt believe the big bang theory and thought that it was more plausible that a man named god somehow created the earth. Oddly he wasnt mormon. he believed mormonism was evil and he grew up as a muslim. i have no idea what he told me his name was but i completely love running across intelligent men like him. and the fifth-eighth times i have been deferred for low red blood cells.i really hate being deferred not because i cant donate but more because it feels like rejection and i hate that feeling. it feels like failure also because i have been taking so many vitamins and eating many many vegetables but STILL i am unhealthy. 

ALSO next week my favorite friend comes home! :)

lucky pair

I came across the best pair of black boots at the DI a few days ago. They were so perfect from a distance. they were lace up boots, not short but not high. a little faded and worn looking but still in good condition. thats about as much as i could see from where i was standing. when i went to get closer to grab and try on some girl came out of nowhere from the other side and and completely stole them...I stood there for a minute thinking maybe she would look and try on and they wouldnt fit, but she didnt even look at them really let alone try them on. she just threw them in her cart looked at me with a smile and went on her way. i was a little upset at her smile and i spent and embarrassing amount of time hunting the shelves for another good find with no luck. 

BUT today i went to visit my fathers house and sitting on the counter was a lovely pair of green oxford shoes that he decided to surprise me with. 

Friday, May 7, 2010


1. I moved back home to utah. its great to be at home. my one complaint is the weather is not so much spring weather and rather cold most of the time. jacket weather. 
2. I got a job! it found me though. and when i told my mother of it last night she told me no bueno... so now i guess i will start looking 
3. i have lost 7 pounds since i moved home! that equals about to be about 2 pounds a week but really probably 7 pounds in one week because for a while i was eating hemp hearts and drinking coffee every morning. then the coffee ran out and the hemp hearts got bland and i had no money to get more. but mother is home now so the kitchen will hopefully fill up again soon. ALSO she told me she was looking at treadmills! good news because she was always against them and i was always for them. 
4. Its really nice to have my own room and bed and bathroom but it gets kind of quiet around here during the days and i really miss maggie and marissa and alicia and devin at those times
5. I was so set on getting a bed a few weeks ago because its hard to see my tv with no bed so my mother, sean, and i went to ikea and got me a bed. but after 3 weeks it still sits in the box on my floor. hopefully ill get to it this week because right now all i can see is the negative on the tv.
6. I decided on the U for fall. 
7. I am on a new diet. whole foods diet, nothing processed. but its not going that well. im going to my grandmas house this weekend to grind some wheat for bread
8. I need to start exercising regularly 

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

tiger sleep

my blog is lacking
im really sorry blog world
i will get back in the groove later this week
i promise i swear

Monday, March 29, 2010

love is love is love

i love feeling in like
i love love

pop battle

The other day on the bus marissa and i were debating whether britney or madonna was the queen of pop.
we both agreed britney.
madonna came first but britneys music is much more grove pop and probably more popular too.
every britney album amazes me
i will always love britney first
but like a prayer is wonderful

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Justin babay

One reason why you would not want to live in my hallway this time of year.
Marissa and Devin play this ALL the time
And secretly i think they are rubbing off on maggie because shes starting to play it too

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

dog days vs. cat nights

This is double dip worthy

Monday, March 22, 2010

Lovelier words

Ailurophile A cat-lover.
Becoming Attractive.
Brood To think alone. 
Bungalow A small, cozy cottage.
Chatoyant Like a cat’s eye. 
Conflate To blend together. 
Cynosure A focal point of admiration.
Dalliance A brief love affair.
Denouement The resolution of a mystery. 
Dulcet Sweet, sugary. 
Effervescent Bubbly
Efflorescence Flowering, blooming.
Elixir A good potion. 
Eloquence Beauty and persuasion in speech. 
Embrocation Rubbing on a lotion. 
Epiphany A sudden revelation.
Erstwhile At one time, for a time. 
Ethereal Gaseous, invisible but detectable.
Evanescent Vanishing quickly, lasting a very short time. 
Evocative Suggestive. 
Fetching Pretty. 
Furtive Shifty, sneaky. 
Glamour Beauty. 
Harbinger Messenger with news of the future. 
Inure To become jaded. 
Ingenue A na├»ve young woman.
Labyrinthine Twisting and turning. 
Lagniappe A special kind of gift. 
Lilt To move musically or lively. 
Lissome Slender and graceful. 
Lithe Slender and flexible.
Love Deep affection. 
Mellifluous Sweet sounding.
Nemesis An unconquerable archenemy. 
Offing The sea between the horizon and the offshore.
Opulent Lush, luxuriant. 
Panacea A solution for all problems  
Petrichor The smell of earth after rain. 
Plethora A large quantity.
Quintessential Most essential. 
Ratatouille A spicy French stew.
Ravel To knit or unknit.
Redolent Fragrant. 
Sempiternal Eternal.
Serendipity Finding something nice while looking for something else. 
Summery Light, delicate or warm and sunny. 
Sumptuous Lush, luxurious. 
Surreptitious Secretive, sneaky.
Susurrous Whispering, hissing. 
Talisman A good luck charm.
Tintinnabulation Tinkling.
Wherewithal The means. 
Woebegone Sorrowful, downcast.