Goodbyes

To all you weirdos who still check this blog, i think im offically done posting here. but if you still want to know what im doing or looking at or looking like you can follow my other blog here or here or here

i love you all!
see you there!

baby date

the other day dayna and I went on a date with the babies. let me tell you these babies are quite the bunch. little baby Lila  is all grown up now (well comparably) and just as cute as a button. and baby Charlee is the tinniest little diva i ever did meet. 

little Ava joined us in the end and we all had a blast soaking up the rays and listening to children cry and scream for hours. although hanging with babies and their moms its really great i love coming home to a quite house where its just me and the kitty cat and no babies are welcome. 

sock guy

i have been very down and awkward the past few weeks. i hope its a short term kind of thing and will disappear soon. other than that life is good, im going to chicago soon and i get to see my very favorite brit lady.

and i made this monkey the other day

the salty city #1

While getting pizza the other day Sean and I discovered a great little house in the middle of town. It was closed for the day unfortunately but it was all about free speech including and especially graffiti art. one day i want to have a home where anyone can come and express themselves whether through words, drawings, graffiti, dance, crafts any such art they desire. i think this is such a beautiful way to show freedom.   

and here we are pondering the thought of such a home :)

graduation

a few days ago was my little sisters 6th grade graduation. to me it is absolutely insane that she is already going into jr. high. while looking around at all the little misters and misses i couldn't help but notice how pumped they all were to be leaving elementary, my sister included. i wanted so badly to remind them to embrace their young age because school only gets more awkward and terrible each year. i wanted to tell all of them to listen to their older siblings and especially their parents because looking back they were always right, always. i want to tell them to think ahead and be kind to everyone. so good luck miss mckell! i hope you have the best experience possible.

news this week

i have a terrible habit of deleting almost every post i write before i post it. i would post everything if i thought it was interesting but usually its pretty boring and i dont know how to start or end posts, only begin. so i have ten posts, ten that i just deleted, but i usually only write at work so luckily its not a total waste of time.

Sunday i brought three baby kitties and their mama kitty home for two weeks. im going to be their foster mom for the time so they are nice and cuddly when they are old enough to be adopted. they are darling! i am so in love with all of them. one is white her name is Shiloh or Milo. i dont know, it changes mostly everyday. but she is white and looks a little siamese. one is a calico color and she has been really timid, she doesnt have a name but sean made her his project yesterday so hopefully she will blossom soon. and the boy is black. we all call him blackie but i might name him Sylvester. hes a punk. and for the mama, she has a name i just forgot it so she is officially 'mama kitty' at the house. i never realized how stinky kitties are until now so im going to stick with dogs, but they are really great guests.

here are the babies eating

this is little shiloh/milo

Monday i went on a hike with sean, ezra and kate. we weren't prepared at all and it was really snowy and wet up there so we only made it about half way but it was okay because it was so beautiful and nice to be up in nature. on the way down we passed a group that was hiking with their llama, it was so scary and so funny.

Tuesday i went to mazza with dayna. we are trying to go to new restaurants when we go out, but the new ones are never as good as the old. mazza was alright, its middle eastern cuisine so i had a falafel sandwich. it was pretty well priced however sean and i made falafel sandwiches last week at home and they were delicious and so much better than mazza's version.

Wednesday i have just taken it easy at home because for the next two days and two nights i will work 37 hours. sounds terrible! all of my favorite friends at work are out of town as well so its going to be mad boring. plus i dont get to go home to salt lake until friday night so i will miss the mister so much. but to pass the time ill try to blog everyday, ill try to take pictures of something fun i do at work or a picture of JoAnas cute smiling face every morning :)

the fish

Everyone should watch this movie


humanity has really lost it 
though its not my generation creating the damage, in a few years it will be and i believe we will only make it worse. im not sure if there is really a way to make a big difference, but i know there is a list of sustainable fish to eat here.


if youre reading this consider printing the list off and taking it around with you, it only takes a few seconds to ask where the fish you are eating comes from. 


you would never eat a cheetah or a wolf or a lion or an orangutan, so why would you eat a fish who is under the same circumstances? 

Spring Has Sprung

Summer is almost here according to school, but the weather seems thinks different. Im in the library right now taking a break from studying, so far this week i have had a chemistry exam and biology exam and a large math project due. this week is over for school, but i still have a biology final, english portfolio, math final, and chemistry final all on monday. its going to be a long day. but then im done! 

I think i did fairly well this semester, i had major winter blues for half of the semester and kind of let myself go, but im making up for it hopefully, now that the trees are budding and the lovely spring colors are emerging. 

Bella has been living in salt lake with me for the past month or so since my mom moved to chicago. things up here have been so wonderful since she came around. she is always happy to see everyone and brings such a great energy to the room. we all love her! plus she finally went to the dog dentist and got 8 teeth pulled and all of the remaining cleaned so its much easier to live with her, another plus, grace the brat is not here to bug everyone ;) 

Dyer

Sean emailed this to me today:

"First of all, I think the law of attraction has been misstated. You do not attract what you want. You attract what you are. That’s how the law of attraction works.

Twenty-five centuries ago in ancient China, Lao-tzu said there were four virtues. If you live them—if you live in a place of God-consciousness—the universe will give you God-consciousness. If you live in a place of ego-consciousness, though, the universe will give you more of that.

One virtue is reverence for all of life. You revere all life. You never kill, you never harm, you never wish harm, and you never have thoughts of harm directed toward yourself or others. Another virtue is natural sincerity, which is manifested as honesty. Just be honest with who you are. Don’t pretend to be something you’re not. Don’t be a phony. Walk your talk. That’s how God works, so doing it is emulating how Source works. The third virtue is gentleness, which manifests as kindness toward all others.

The fourth virtue, which is relevant here, is supportiveness. If you say to the universe, “Gimme, gimme, gimme,” which is what a lot of the work around the law of attraction says because of a misinterpretation, then the universe gives you back what you offered out. You get more “gimme, gimme, gimme.” “Gimme” means you don’t have enough. You have a shortage. The universe just keeps giving you more shortage because of what you’re thinking and saying.

If, on the other hand, you say to the universe again and again, “How may I serve? How may I serve? How may I serve?” and you live a life of constancy reflecting that principle, the universe will respond back, “How may I serve you?”"

i love this. it makes me feel like any problem i think i have doesn't need to exist as a problem. and its only a problem because i have made it a problem in my mind. that idea makes me feel really free

new era

i have been thinking about writing in this blog more often
i dont know if anyone reads it anymore
but i think i will