Goodbyes

To all you weirdos who still check this blog, i think im offically done posting here. but if you still want to know what im doing or looking at or looking like you can follow my other blog here or here or here

i love you all!
see you there!

baby date

the other day dayna and I went on a date with the babies. let me tell you these babies are quite the bunch. little baby Lila  is all grown up now (well comparably) and just as cute as a button. and baby Charlee is the tinniest little diva i ever did meet. 

little Ava joined us in the end and we all had a blast soaking up the rays and listening to children cry and scream for hours. although hanging with babies and their moms its really great i love coming home to a quite house where its just me and the kitty cat and no babies are welcome. 

sock guy

i have been very down and awkward the past few weeks. i hope its a short term kind of thing and will disappear soon. other than that life is good, im going to chicago soon and i get to see my very favorite brit lady.

and i made this monkey the other day

the salty city #1

While getting pizza the other day Sean and I discovered a great little house in the middle of town. It was closed for the day unfortunately but it was all about free speech including and especially graffiti art. one day i want to have a home where anyone can come and express themselves whether through words, drawings, graffiti, dance, crafts any such art they desire. i think this is such a beautiful way to show freedom.   

and here we are pondering the thought of such a home :)

graduation

a few days ago was my little sisters 6th grade graduation. to me it is absolutely insane that she is already going into jr. high. while looking around at all the little misters and misses i couldn't help but notice how pumped they all were to be leaving elementary, my sister included. i wanted so badly to remind them to embrace their young age because school only gets more awkward and terrible each year. i wanted to tell all of them to listen to their older siblings and especially their parents because looking back they were always right, always. i want to tell them to think ahead and be kind to everyone. so good luck miss mckell! i hope you have the best experience possible.

news this week

i have a terrible habit of deleting almost every post i write before i post it. i would post everything if i thought it was interesting but usually its pretty boring and i dont know how to start or end posts, only begin. so i have ten posts, ten that i just deleted, but i usually only write at work so luckily its not a total waste of time.

Sunday i brought three baby kitties and their mama kitty home for two weeks. im going to be their foster mom for the time so they are nice and cuddly when they are old enough to be adopted. they are darling! i am so in love with all of them. one is white her name is Shiloh or Milo. i dont know, it changes mostly everyday. but she is white and looks a little siamese. one is a calico color and she has been really timid, she doesnt have a name but sean made her his project yesterday so hopefully she will blossom soon. and the boy is black. we all call him blackie but i might name him Sylvester. hes a punk. and for the mama, she has a name i just forgot it so she is officially 'mama kitty' at the house. i never realized how stinky kitties are until now so im going to stick with dogs, but they are really great guests.

here are the babies eating

this is little shiloh/milo

Monday i went on a hike with sean, ezra and kate. we weren't prepared at all and it was really snowy and wet up there so we only made it about half way but it was okay because it was so beautiful and nice to be up in nature. on the way down we passed a group that was hiking with their llama, it was so scary and so funny.

Tuesday i went to mazza with dayna. we are trying to go to new restaurants when we go out, but the new ones are never as good as the old. mazza was alright, its middle eastern cuisine so i had a falafel sandwich. it was pretty well priced however sean and i made falafel sandwiches last week at home and they were delicious and so much better than mazza's version.

Wednesday i have just taken it easy at home because for the next two days and two nights i will work 37 hours. sounds terrible! all of my favorite friends at work are out of town as well so its going to be mad boring. plus i dont get to go home to salt lake until friday night so i will miss the mister so much. but to pass the time ill try to blog everyday, ill try to take pictures of something fun i do at work or a picture of JoAnas cute smiling face every morning :)

the fish

Everyone should watch this movie


humanity has really lost it 
though its not my generation creating the damage, in a few years it will be and i believe we will only make it worse. im not sure if there is really a way to make a big difference, but i know there is a list of sustainable fish to eat here.


if youre reading this consider printing the list off and taking it around with you, it only takes a few seconds to ask where the fish you are eating comes from. 


you would never eat a cheetah or a wolf or a lion or an orangutan, so why would you eat a fish who is under the same circumstances? 

Spring Has Sprung

Summer is almost here according to school, but the weather seems thinks different. Im in the library right now taking a break from studying, so far this week i have had a chemistry exam and biology exam and a large math project due. this week is over for school, but i still have a biology final, english portfolio, math final, and chemistry final all on monday. its going to be a long day. but then im done! 

I think i did fairly well this semester, i had major winter blues for half of the semester and kind of let myself go, but im making up for it hopefully, now that the trees are budding and the lovely spring colors are emerging. 

Bella has been living in salt lake with me for the past month or so since my mom moved to chicago. things up here have been so wonderful since she came around. she is always happy to see everyone and brings such a great energy to the room. we all love her! plus she finally went to the dog dentist and got 8 teeth pulled and all of the remaining cleaned so its much easier to live with her, another plus, grace the brat is not here to bug everyone ;) 

Dyer

Sean emailed this to me today:

"First of all, I think the law of attraction has been misstated. You do not attract what you want. You attract what you are. That’s how the law of attraction works.

Twenty-five centuries ago in ancient China, Lao-tzu said there were four virtues. If you live them—if you live in a place of God-consciousness—the universe will give you God-consciousness. If you live in a place of ego-consciousness, though, the universe will give you more of that.

One virtue is reverence for all of life. You revere all life. You never kill, you never harm, you never wish harm, and you never have thoughts of harm directed toward yourself or others. Another virtue is natural sincerity, which is manifested as honesty. Just be honest with who you are. Don’t pretend to be something you’re not. Don’t be a phony. Walk your talk. That’s how God works, so doing it is emulating how Source works. The third virtue is gentleness, which manifests as kindness toward all others.

The fourth virtue, which is relevant here, is supportiveness. If you say to the universe, “Gimme, gimme, gimme,” which is what a lot of the work around the law of attraction says because of a misinterpretation, then the universe gives you back what you offered out. You get more “gimme, gimme, gimme.” “Gimme” means you don’t have enough. You have a shortage. The universe just keeps giving you more shortage because of what you’re thinking and saying.

If, on the other hand, you say to the universe again and again, “How may I serve? How may I serve? How may I serve?” and you live a life of constancy reflecting that principle, the universe will respond back, “How may I serve you?”"

i love this. it makes me feel like any problem i think i have doesn't need to exist as a problem. and its only a problem because i have made it a problem in my mind. that idea makes me feel really free

new era

i have been thinking about writing in this blog more often
i dont know if anyone reads it anymore
but i think i will 

the book was excellent

i want something exciting to happen. the news is always about the weather. blah blah. im sick of the weather. i wish i had a tv show that i was interested in right now. im not really interested in reading anything. i dont want to knit anything. its too snowy to go out anywhere. i dont really have anybody that interesting to talk to or see. and mom is gone so the house is really lonely. its less lonely than salt lake house though. when sean is gone that place beams eeriness. 

Merry Hats Day

I started knitting this winter. Ive mostly been doing hats for the little ones at the hospital but i just started making big ones! so get excited for hats my friends! also im going to start doing some scarves soon so if you want one call me beep me if you wanna reach me. 

(my plan for december was to post something i made everyday.. but ive been slacking so this is a big few weeks post all in one)

Long Time Gone

Its been awhile since i last wrote so ill give an update post and then a few better posts to come shortly!

I finally finished fall semester at the U. I really have loved it. its a much better fit for me than BYUH. although i do really miss the girls from hawaii. I decided im going to go into nursing. its a bit of a change but i think it will be really excellent. so ill start my prereqs next semester and go from there.

I moved to a new apartment closer to school that is lovely, plus my best friend lives in the door next to me :) the downfall is im having a hard time getting all moved in and situated because of maintenance. but once its all finished it will be awesome and ill post some pictures when the time comes.

I got a new job working at a home with Autistic girls. im getting more used to it and its sinking in a lot more. but its definitely better than kneaders. Dayna and Berklee work there as well so its good to see my best girls more often. i miss them up in salt lake.

Ive been feeling in a rut for the past few months. im not sure what its from so thats a big factor in me moving and changing jobs. I also changed my hair style and i feel like that has helped me a lot. im not sure what is causing it because i feel content with most things in my life, i guess something is missing. im hoping the break in school and getting to spend more time with my family will help me figure it out.

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My best girl friend dayna had the most beautiful baby girl and i love her and both of them will all my heart!!!

Lila Faye

Born September 2, 1010

8 pounds 16 ounces

18.5 inches long

Dayna! you did it! i am so proud of you and i couldnt dream of a kinder more selfless friend than you. you are truly an angel and i love you. your baby is so pretty! i loved holding her and looking at her big baby eyes and chubby baby body. she is perfect. I cant wait for you to come home to be my SL buddy lover.  

watch that watch this

im writing letters and making envelopes for all you lovelies right now
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ratssss

My blog has become extremely impersonal lately.. im so sorry. i guess i get nervous at the snakes lurking around on the web. but i have been lacking on my personal journal as well and my mind is forgetful and i dont remember this summer that well. so fall ill try to be better. 


Nobody seems interesting to me lately. I try hanging around new people but they always come off too strong. i dont know if its me or them now. anyway... i have spent a lot of time alone this month. i can count the lonely days and the sad ones but i realized lonely isnt always sad. plus i got two new pet rats to help my lonely days
Olivia-she is hairless and beautiful. when i bought her there was a tiny cyst on her eye that they said would go away. but after a week or so it grew huge.. so the other night i popped the rat zit! it was true horror, green goo and blood running down her face. shes doing a lot better now and seems so to have such a happier spirit. 
Leo is a tiny baby girl rat with black and white hair. shes so sweet and friendly. the first day she came home she had a serious sneezing problem so i looked it up and turns out baby rats sneeze when they are excited. 


They are almost impossible to take pictures of- but here they are